Our Brother Willard A Short
Story by Treva Sharp Straw Hats We had one whole summer of freedom and
joyful play before our Brother Willard learned to walk. Our mother said that we reminded her of
gypsies. We left our straw hats (our father brought home new straw hats for
us every spring) in the pasture where the cows ate them. There was not a
trace left when our mother sent us back to the pasture to look for our hats.
The cows had eaten our hats — band and all. Our hats being eaten, the sun bleached
my brother’s fair hair to white while it turned my brown hair from brown to
red. Our father did not bring home more hats. It was not alone that we were
poor people; our father was disappointed that we had not kept our hats a
little longer. Animals We had to play in the pasture. Animals
played, grazed, and lived in a pasture. We always played that we were
animals: we lived in the pasture. Our aunt had sent us an animal book for
Christmas. Animals Of The World was the content, if not the name, of our
book. As we raced over our whole hill, two
hollows and two half-hills, we became different animals to fit the lay of the
land. Down by our pond, we were elephants. We wished desperately that we had
some kind of hose to use for a trunk so that we might spray ourselves as
elephants do in bathing. If we had had a hose to use as a trunk we should
certainly have sprayed ourselves, no matter that it was spring and still
cold. Since we could not manage any kind of trunk, we had to be content to
fling our arms about in imitation of elephant trunks and imagine ourselves
bathed and sprayed in the pond. Up on the side of our hill we became
giraffe and grazed from the tops of the sassafras saplings, holding our hands
behind our backs as we bit off the young buds and new leaves. We must not use
our hands, that would spoil the game: giraffe have no hands. Being animals that we had never seen,
except in a book, called for all our imagination. Just what did an elephant
or a giraffe think on all occasions gave us many problems. We were sure that we knew what horses
thought at all times. We were horses every day of our lives. Our greatest
frustration came from not being horses in the flesh. It was difficult to nip
grass without the proper lips and teeth. Clover was easy, clover was
delicious, but grass did not taste so good and grass was difficult to nip.
Corn was impossible, except in sweet corn season, and even then, we would get
slapped if we tried to eat corn off the cob, in horse fashion, — without
hands. Enid Our mother was mostly indulgent about
our wild games. She was a little shocked that her daughter desired to be a
horse (she thought it not too bad for a boy), “Why don’t you go play with
Enid?” she would suggest to me. Our mother would smile when she saw Enid
and I playing with dolls, weaving garlands of clover, or when she heard, “You
be the mother and I’ll be the little girl.” I liked Enid well enough, but I thought
that Enid was a little crazy. Enid liked to lay up on the tool shelf in the
woodshed and moan that she was ill. When it came my turn to be ill — I would
not moan. I had moaned, many times, with high fevers and earaches. I knew
that pain was not funny. I did not want to moan — not even in play. I did not
enjoy Enid’s company. I would play, but without enthusiasm. I enjoyed my
brother. My Next-To-Me Brother My brother and I were so attuned that a
new game would start without words. Someone would start chewing in the
ruminant manner, then, “I am a camel.” Instantly we had to eat briars. Didn’t
the book say that camels ate briars? Rusty Nails It had to happen. There were thorns as well
as briars, and though almost never around our house (our father did not throw
nails around, nor discard boards with nails in them) there was the fearsome
rusty nail. When my brother or I stepped on a nail
or got a thorn in a foot, our mother would pick the cruel thing out and make
the wound bleed good. This was torture but we knew that it had to be done. We
had then to sit for hours soaking the injured foot in hot salt water. If,
after all this and a bandage, the wound turned red — we had to wear a
poultice, night and day, until no red remained. We would watch hopefully when
our bandage was being changed and wait impatiently for our mother to say that
the foot was going to be all right. Our mother knew when a foot was going to
be all right the way she knew when there would be mushrooms to pick. When our
mother said the foot was going to be all right, we forgot the sore foot and
went back to our games. Burrs Sometimes, our mother had to take her
sewing scissors and cut the cockle burrs from our hair. When we made baskets
of the burrs, we would get to throwing burrs at each other. In spite of agile
dodging, each would get a burr or two. When we went to our mother with burrs
matted in our hair, she would threaten to whip us. She would knock us around
a bit with a slapping motion as she looked for her scissors. What could we
do? Burrs are uncomfortable in ones hair. Cutting was the only way. After she had cut the burrs from our
hair, she would say, “Now, go look in the mirror at the shaggy nicks in your
hair. You looked bad enough without nicks in your hair.” We would go look. We would be ashamed.
Nicks in the hair was as ugly as could be. We would be sorry but we would
forget the minute we were in the pasture again. We were too full of green and
summer. Dutch Bites Our father had allowed us, under his
instruction, and at the times that he permitted us, to play with, and around,
our horses and mules. Knowing that nothing could keep us out of the stalls,
he instructed us. I had been bitten (I had two rows of
purple-horse-tooth-marks, top and bottom, on my right arm) because I had
tried to touch a foal, a new born horse, before our father had given his
permission. Our father had said, “Now if you go
near that mare or try to touch that foal, that mare will kill you. If you get
into that box stall — that mare will stomp you to death.” We knew that our dear sweet Dutch would
kill us. Our father did not use that tone unless he meant every word that he
was saying. He was not fooling. We could picture ourselves stomped out flat
by our Dutch’s big hoofs. I did not get into the stall. I just
tried to reach across the manger. The foal was suckling. His little tail
was within my reach. His little tail looked not at all like a horse’s tail.
His little tail looked like the longest, silkiest bottle brush in the world.
I thought his little tail looked like a Christmas Tree. If only I could just
touch his little tail. She bit me. Our dear sweet Old Dutch
bit me. I cried. It hurt. Horses bite real hard when they bite. But I cried
more because I had meant no harm than because I had, already, a deep bruised
red, four rows of teeth marks on my arm. I did not tell my parents until my
mother saw. The marks of my transgression were impossible to hide. “You’re lucky that she did not break
your arm.” my parents gave me no sympathy. I wore those purple marks for almost a
year. Riding The Foal Our father never had to break a horse or
a mule to the saddle. “If you get onto that mule’s back and ruin its back — I
will beat you to death.” our father would say. We did not doubt that our father would
beat us to death, so — we did not climb onto the back of our darling, our
baby, our playfellow. We knew that the day would come when
our father would say, “Now, you,” indicating my brother, “You, may get onto
Jimmy’s back and ride.” Then, turning to me, “You, not yet. You wait a little
longer.” I was a few pounds heavier than my brother though no taller. “That boy was born tall,” or “That boy
was born running,” our mother would say of my brother who was as tall as I
though almost three years younger. He could certainly run as fast as I,
though I could run longer. I knew that the day would come when our
father would say, “Now, you may get onto Jimmy’s back and ride.” and he would
be pointing at me. I’ve never known a greater privilege. Our sweet Jimmy
would never remember when he was not a saddle mule. Jimmy loved us especially. Jimmy was
the most loving of all our horses and mules. We would hang onto Jimmy’s neck
and kiss him in the soft fur that grew along the sides of his long mules
face. The fur around Jimmy’s mouth was softer than velvet. Combing Jimmy We were allowed to use the combs and
brushes that our father used on the horses — if we put them back in their
exact places. There were days when we combed and brushed the day away. If we
had been hired grooms, we would have felt overworked. If we got started combing and brushing
on a rainy day when our work horses were home, our faithful mares with the
long shiny hairs on their heavy ankles, our mother would have to call us more
than once to lunch. We would beg our mother to find ribbons that we could braid
into the manes that we had combed until they shone. We would imagine horse
shows where we could win prizes. We were sure that our not-quite-pure-bred
mares were the most beautiful horses in the world. Nellie Our horses and mules loved us. We were
attentive, gentle, loving, and we knew what we were doing. “Hoo there, Nelly, hoo,” we would say,
in the best groom manner, as we walked behind our Nelly. Our Nelly was
nervous and inclined to kick. We knew that we had to tell her what we were doing
before we made any new moves. As long as she was informed, it would be all
right — and it was. Our longing to be horses came from our
feeling that the horses were superior. We longed to be covered with fur or
hair of such color, such sheen, such beauty. Our hair did not shine like
Nelly’s hair, not even when it was freshly combed with water. Imagine being
bright yellow, like Nelly, trimmed with a black mane and tail, or the rich
mahogany of our Dutch with wavy black mane and tail. We longed for a tail. How could any
creature move about in style without a tail. We pranced about in imitation of
horses, but it was no good: We had no style because we had no tail. Imagine being so sweet and good that
one always smelled good. Even when they came in dead tired and sweaty from
the fields — they smelled good. We wished that we had a fragrance like that.
Horses were so sweet and good that even their dung smelled good. We could see that everything about a
horse was good. A horse had not one bad feature. A horse would not hurt a
person unless it had been spoiled by a bad person. A horse would not step on
a person unless there was no other place to step. We had seen a picture of horses in a
battle scene. We knew that the wild eyed anxiety shown on the horses’ faces
was caused by the dead and dying on the ground. The horses, at the risk of
their own lives, would not step on the men, not even the dead men, but there
was no other place to step: so, the horses were out of their minds from this
violation of their nature. We felt sorry for the horses in the picture. We
felt sorry for the wounded and dying men too, but the horses were being
forced to go against their nature. We thought that not all the men had gone
against their nature. The Hakes When we thought of war, we thought of
the Hakes. We would not mind having a war with the Hakes. If we had warhorses
and an army, we would ride the Hakes down and leave them dead and dying. When we were on the road to our
grandfather’s house, the Hakes would come out and push us around in the road.
There were four of them to us two, and all of them boys. We could not believe
that we had stood our ground and walked the public road as was our right, but
somehow we got through them and on our way. We took to cutting through the fields,
there was a path part of the way, in order to avoid the Hakes. We knew that
we needed to get a little older and stronger. Nellie Gray My brother would weep when our mother sang
the Stephen Foster song about Nelly Gray. Our mother would have to explain to
my brother that she was not singing about our horse Nelly. That our horse was
Nelly Bay and that she was singing about a person, a woman, named Nelly Gray.
My brother would talk through his tears,
“I don’t want anyone to take our Nelly away.” My brother and I were deeply attached to
our horses, but we practiced the HORSE SENSE that our father had taught us.
We were young jockeys, baby grooms, we never would have done what our brother
Willard did. Of course, Willard was still a baby, maybe Willard would learn. Willard Willard could not yet walk — but he
could creep like lightning and he had a talent for going unnoticed. We never
noticed what Willard was doing until it was too late. Surely, Willard did not like being a
baby. Willard did not choose to be held, not even by his mother. Willard
always wanted to be down. Willard would squirm and fuss until our mother
would let him down: once down, Willard went exploring. One late afternoon, our father was
showing us something of great interest to all of us. Our mother was
completely entranced with his account and my brother and I were all ears
because he was explaining some new harness that he had bought and he was
showing us how it fit and how fine it looked on Nelly. Meantime, Willard got down. Willard
crept over to where the rainwater came down off of the barn. Our soil was
yellow clay but the rainwater had washed the clay out from this spot leaving
a few gallons of shiny glacial sand. Willard had found him a find. Will was
creating sand worlds of his own. None noticed Willard. Now donkeys and mules have a sense of
humor. Mules do lots of things for fun. Horses are noble, honorable, gallant,
and brave but horses are serious: mules are full of fun. Horses run away only
if frightened out of their senses: mules run away to hear the wagon rattle. While Willard was playing in the sand,
while our father was holding our attention with the harness on Nelly, while
our mother listened to our father — the mules got bored and started to play. Jack And Jimmy For fun, just for fun, the fun of
chasing something, our Jack and our Jimmy started some calves to running. The
calves started running around the barn with Jack and Jimmy close on their
heels. Jack and Jimmy could run many times
faster than the calves. They did not want to catch the calves, nor to overrun
the calves, nor to stomp the calves: Jack and Jimmy wanted to chase the
calves for fun, so they ran just fast enough to keep the calves running. Around the barn came the calves,
running fast for calves, with Jack and Jimmy pegging along at their heels. As they rounded the corner — there was
Willard — right in their path, sitting right under their hoofs. Hip. The first calf cleared Willard. Hip. The second calf cleared Willard. Hip. The third calf cleared Willard. Hip. Hip! Both Jack and Jimmy cleared
Willard. My brother and I declared, later, that
Jack and Jimmy had looked amused though the calves had looked surprised. Our father stared in unbelief: he could
not move. My brother and I could not close our mouths, much less move; we just
stared with open mouths. Our mother looked like a statue with both arms
raised. They were coming around again. Would
our brother, again, be the hurdle in this unbelievable steeplechase? Our mother was the first to come
unfrozen. She ran and snatched her baby boy just before they came to the
corner again. No one spoke. It took time for us to
thaw out. One by one we started moving, stiffly, like frozen bees. Not one
word was spoken. We cast our eyes down. We exhaled in relief. Our mother had gone into the house with
Willard tucked under her arm. My brother and I became interested in nothing.
We did not look at each other. Our father started putting the harness away
with elaborate care. Bread And Butter “When you’ve finished your bread and
butter, would you like to go see if we have any mail?” Our mother baked bread almost every
day. The bread was light and sweet with a golden crust that she always
buttered or greased with bacon drippings if she had no butter. Today, we had butter. Our mother had
buttered the thick slices of fresh warm bread. There is hardly a better taste
on earth than good fresh bread. We could not think of one thing until we had
eaten our bread and butter. I felt as strong as a very small horse
when I picked up the shafts of the little cart that our father had made for
us. Our Cart We had waited a long time for the cart.
First, our father had to have wheels,
good wheels. Where could he get good wheels? He could buy a worn-out baby
carriage at a farm sale. He might find suitable wheels on the city dump when
he went to Washington with our grandfather to pay taxes. Our cart wheels had come from the
Washington dump. Just as though those wheels were waiting for us — there they
were on a discarded baby carriage. Our father got the wheels and we got our
cart. The wheels on our cart were so strong,
they rolled on such fine bearings, that our cart was as light as a racing
sulky, which was just as our father had planned. Our father had said that we would take turns being the horse —
but it turned out that I was always the horse. Perhaps being a little older caused me
to take the lead in pulling the cart, or it may be that my desire to be a
horse was so intense that I took every chance to be the horse and pull the
cart. My brother was not so heavy as I, both he and the cart were as nothing,
so — it may be that it was easier for me to pull him than for him to pull me.
Why ever, I was the horse. Going To Get The Mail We were rolling as fast as I could run
down our lane. Our lane had no deep ruts to slow our speed. Our lane was
shale. When the New Roads had been cut through
our hills, it had become necessary to cut us a lane (the Old Road had passed
right in front of our house) and it was pure luck (the next shale was a mile
away) that our lane was made of thin layers of sandstone. If we could dig out
a piece of this shaley earth, when we were playing mud pies, we called it
layer cake. I hoped that I would never fall: the
shale would be rough on knees; too, if I fell, the cart would run over me. I did not fall though we were going so
fast when I turned into the New Road that my brother had to hold on tight. It was lucky that our cart seat sat so
low between the wheels that our cart never turned over. My brother was able
to hold on. As I swung left out of our lane into
the cut clay of the New Road, I could feel that all was well. Like any horse,
I would know if I lost my rider. We had so much momentum that it was not
necessary to pull on the cart until I was a third of the way up the first
hill, the steep hill, the long hill, the hill of which we owned almost a
half. Our Pond It was always cool, almost damp, as we
crossed the culvert that drained our pond into Angus’ pasture. The end of our pond was a good spot. On
Angus’ side grew elderberries, while on our side grew willows. There were, at
all times, frogs, turtles, dragonflies, muskrat, and our ducks to watch. Baby
ducks could not come to the pond. Our mother said that the turtles would grab
their feet and pull them under to drown them and eat them. We had not seen
any turtle do this foul deed but our mother said that they would do it. The Hen’s Ducks The saddest sight that we had seen at
the pond was the poor old hen that had hatched out duck eggs. When the ducks were big enough to be
allowed at the pond, when our mother allowed the mother hen and her ducks to
be out, the ducks had run as fast as they could waddle, and jumped into the
pond, had floated and paddled away into their natural element like so many
fluffy yellow swans. The poor mother hen, being sure that her children would
drown, had run up and down the side of the pond squalling out warnings at the
top of her hen voice. She had squawked until she lost her voice, she had lost
her appetite; she had started losing her feathers. Our mother had shut her up
in a solitary coop where she could not see the ducklings that were causing
her such grief until she forgot that she had hatched out children. Our mother
said that the ducks did not need her, now, and that there was no sense in her
making herself sick over her strange children. We felt as sorry as possible for the
poor agitated hen. No human could see that poor hen running up and down,
running into the edge of the pond, beating the water with her poor helpless
wings, wetting her poor wettable hen’s feathers, squalling wildly, looking
all ways with wild eyes, and not feel all the pity that a heart can hold. We
were thankful that our mother knew what to do to make her forget the sorrow
that motherhood had brought. We asked our mother if the hen would have died.
Our mother said that she might have died. The Top Of The Hill Just before the top of the hill, I had
to pull on the shafts but my brother as not heavy. We always rested at the top of this
hill and looked back across our hollow, across our pond in our first hollow,
to see if we could see our mother in the door, in the yard, or in our garden.
We were little children. We wanted to see our mother. Too, we had to gather courage before we
plunged down the other side of this hill, so we lingered where we could see
all of our home. All of our house, all of our garden, our chicken house, our
fruit trees, our barn and our darling mules, Jack and Jimmy playing in our
backyard. We looked down into the hollow in front
of us. We did not say, “I hate to go but I have to go, so here I go.” We were
too scared for children’s rhymes. That rhyme was for play, for jumping out of
the barn loft. No rhyme could get us through this next hollow. Lemuel’s Woods It was dark down there, even on the
sunniest day, not as dark as Lemuel’s Woods but shady, covered with shadows.
There were trees on three sides of the hollow and the side of this hill on
the fourth side. The only sunlight came in the afternoon, and this only in
summer when the sun traveled to set in the Northwest. But still, it was not
as dark a Lemuel’s Woods. My brother was so afraid of Lemuel’s
Woods that he would not enter the edge. I was afraid, too, but I would not
tell my brother. It was so black in Lemuel’s Woods that one would need a
lantern in the daytime. We knew why Lemuel’s Woods was so
black. We had heard our father say, “No trees have ever been cut out of
Lemuel’s Woods: That is virgin forest.” When our mother read Hiawatha, or
Evangeline, or The Courtship of Miles Standish — we knew how it was: It was
like Lemuel’s Woods. We would stand by the edge of Lemuel’s
Woods. We would go as far as where our little spring branch entered the
woods, but there, on a mossy little mound, we would stand. “Go on, there is nothing in there.” I
would say to my brother. I knew that I spoke the truth. I knew that there was
nothing in there. “You go first,” my brother would say. I would not go first. He would not go
first. We had never been into Lemuel’s Woods. But we had to go through this next
hollow. It was on the way to our mailbox. We had to go through that hollow. I cannot say that I gathered courage. I
did not feel strong nor brave. I do not know how I managed to start. I just
know that after a while of dread, of looking deep down where I knew that I
had to go — I would go. Once started down the hill, I had to
run very fast so that the cart would not overrun me. This hill had deep ruts
to break the speed of the cart (our land was the only shale for a mile
around) but this hill was steeper than our lane so that I had the same
necessity not to fall and to run very fast to stay in front of the cart. It was cool and dark at the bottom of
the hill. Light could come only from the right. The light lay glassy on the
stagnant pond that was supposed to drain through the culvert under our feet. The trickle from the culvert met with
little spring branches and became the stream that fed our pond. When they built the New Roads through
our hills, they had placed this culvert too high, causing the water to be
deeper than it would normally be. The deepened water had killed some trees. Buzzards Now there were dead and leafless trees
sticking up out of a sluggish, glassy pond. The tops of the dead trees served
as a roost for great, dull-gray birds with long red faces ending in viciously
curved beaks: a buzzards roost. A buzzard’s roost. I would not look. I
had never looked after the first time. I did not want to see them again. “Don’t look at them!” I yelled back at
my brother. I was running as fast as I could. Why did he have to stare at anything
that frightened him? I was almost sure that it was not good to let anything
know how frightening it was. If those buzzards knew how scared we were, they
might come down from there and eat us — no matter that we were not dead. I knew that buzzards eat only dead meat, but they might not have
found any dead meat and would
settle for us. I had seen them floating high with their eye on the ground,
their noses sniffing for something dead.
Was that why their noses had grown so long? All that sniffing? They looked fat and prosperous, though
there was no beauty in their black feathers. I wondered why the black
feathers of crows and blackbirds were so pretty while the black feathers of
these great ones looked so dusty and gray. They were sure of themselves. Their
eyes followed us like judges. They were as secure as millionaires: no one
wanted to eat their meat, no hunter would shoot them. They ate their fill of some poor dead
creature and then they sat. They ate again and then — they sat some more: no
wonder they looked so fat. They loved death. They lived on death.
They would roost only in dead trees. There would always be plenty for them. We could not have explained why they were so fearsome to us but
we could see that they watched our liveliness with patient curiosity. We
thought that they were thinking “We’ll get them later.” Our mother and our father knew that the
buzzards used these trees as a roost: if there had been any danger from them
— our mother would not have allowed us to come this way. Our fear was
unreasonable and we knew that it was unreasonable. If any living creature had
ever been attacked by buzzards we would have heard about it. Our father, our
grandfather, Old Jeff or Old Thom would have talked of it. We were sure that
it had never happened. Old Thom knew everything. Old Thom would have warned
our parents. But what was that hanging down over
their necks — entrails that they had not finished? I would not look closely
enough to see. I could not slacken my speed. I must run at this extreme all
the way up this next hill. Luckily, this next hill was a short one
and the buzzards were soon out of sight. It was always the same, as soon as we
were over the crest I would stop to rest — I was out of breath. While I caught my breath, dawdling in
the shafts, dragging my toes in the clay dust of the ruts, my brother looked
back toward the buzzards. Did he expect them to follow us? “They are half asleep. They don’t know
where we’ve gone.” I would assure him, “They can’t see us from here.” Mushrooms After a while, my brother might say,
“Do you think there are mushrooms today?” At the top of the next hill, we could
see the cut-over thicket where we so often found mushrooms. “Mom did not give us a bag.” How did
our mother know when there would be mushrooms? Our mother could feel the air, look out
at the sky, note how it had rained, how recently it had rained, and from
these notes she could tell if there would be mushrooms to gather. Some days, she would send us back when
we had already been to the mailbox. She would hand us a bag saying, “If you
go look, I’ll bet there will be mushrooms.” Almost always, we would fill our bag
with Fat Morels, the only mushrooms that we knew how to pick. Old Thom knew
how to pick and eat many kinds of mushrooms, but then, Old Thom knew
everything. Quicksand There was one more hollow before we
came to our mailbox. This was a sweet little hollow where
the ground was always wet. Just a little more water would have made mud, but
there was mud only when it rained. This was underground water: the water
stayed just a few feet below the surface soil. Off there to the left was
where the water came from. There, just under the ground, it could be traced
because the oats above it were a brighter green. We knew a spot where a lot of water,
deep underground, made a quicksand hole. The quicksand hole was on the New
Road about half a mile past Thom’s house. All the Old Timers were laughing at
the Feds and the County Road Department for building the New Road over the
quicksand hole. But the quicksand hole lay right upon the section line and
the New Roads had been laid out to follow the section lines. Every summer the
county hauled stones and dumped many loads of stones into the quicksand hole.
The stones would sink until it seemed that they could sink no more — then
they would rebuild the road over the quicksand hole. In six months the road
would start to quiver. Farmers would not drive their horses
over the quivering road. Farmers had seen quicksand before. The horses would
balk if any were so foolish as to drive their horses onto the quivering road:
the horses knew better than to step into quicksand. Wagons would start
driving around the quicksand hole and the county would have to fill the hole
with stones again. Old Jeff and Old Thom would take their pipes from their
mouths to laugh. The Old Roads had followed the ridges
of the hills where there was most often shale for the wheels to turn on.
Shale was nature’s pavement. There could hardly be a better road than shale.
Too, almost nothing would grow on shale, dogwood, dewberries, a few weeds,
soup beans, in the better spots, and herbs, like pennyroyal: The Old Roads
had not wasted the land. The Bottomless Hole “I’ll bet there’s quicksand down
there,” my brother would say of The Bottomless Hole just beyond our mailbox. The Bottomless Hole was right beside the cut-over thicket where
we picked mushrooms. Just across the Old Road from our mushroom thicket was
this hole-in-the-earth so bottomless that the New Road had to be built around
it. “Calls for a suspension bridge,” Old
Jeff had laughed, “who’s going to pay for the suspension bridge?” The big planners had not admitted that
they could be outwitted by a quicksand hole but they admitted defeat when
they realized the bottomlessness of the Bottomless Hole. The Bottomless Hole started out bottomless and got deeper as
it progressed. The Old Road had skirted The Bottomless
Hole respectfully. The Old Road curved right around the edge of the hole: the
New Road was not so well planned, they had to cut the New Road into the side
of the hill that rose from the Bottomless Hole. When we were picking mushrooms, we
would cross the Old Road and look down into The Bottomless Hole. We sometimes
found a few mushrooms just across The Old Road. No mushrooms could get us to
try climbing down into the hole: we would not climb down there, we could not
keep upright, we had to hold onto a tree to look down. How could we get out
again? Someone had brought a few logs out from
the hole. They had used ropes and pulleys. We had watched them one day from
far back. We wanted no part of The Bottomless Hole. Shortcake We looked for mushrooms from habit,
though without much hope, because our mother had not given us a bag. More
than habit, we wanted to eat mushrooms. When we brought home mushrooms, our
mother would stop everything and cook them for us. We did not have to wait
until suppertime. Our father did not care for mushrooms. Just the opposite, when we picked
dewberries or wild strawberries — we always waited until suppertime. Our
mother would make a shortcake. The shortcake would be a work of art served
with fresh cream. Our father enjoyed the shortcake so much, our mother would
make a point that we had picked the berries, while we sat stuffing ourselves
with shortcake in a glow of virtue. We were not quite so virtuous. We were
stuffing ourselves with berries the second time: we had eaten all we could
hold while we picked the berries. We would pick and eat, pick and eat:
then, dutifully pick some for in our little pails. We knew how many it took
to make a shortcake. We would look, and measure with our hands on the outside
of the pail. The Mail There were no mushrooms, we knew there
wouldn’t be: our mother could tell. From our mailbox there would be a farm
magazine and one or more of those letters that no one waits for. Sometimes,
fairly often, there would be a fat letter that we knew came from some of our
mother’s family. There would be news in that letter. News from another state.
It might be from the aunt who sent us a package for Christmas. My brother held the mail with great
care as he clung to the cart over the same hills on our way home. When there
were mushrooms, he would have all that he could to hold and stay on the cart.
Today, he had only the mail to hold and
he held it with great care. No one had to tell us that our mail was
important. We had seen our parents open the mail. Goodness knew what great
news might be in that letter. We would certainly hear some of it. Willard Is Lost At the top of the high hill of which we
owned almost a half, we stopped to rest and to look across our first hollow
to see if we could see our mother. There she was — but she was walking
rapidly, with her skirts flying like they had before. We got an urgent
feeling and started right down the hill to get home as soon as we could. When we got to the top of our lane —
our mother came toward us from the barn. “Run,” she said, “run look in the
spring to see if Willard has fallen in. I’ve just looked all in the barn. I
can’t find him.” Our mother’s neck looked swollen on the
sides. Her face looked red. Her hands kept moving. Her eyes looked wild. We
knew what was the trouble: He was gone again. We ran as fast as we could. Never mind
that we had just been running. The urgency gave us fresh breath. We knew the downhill path so well that
we did not have to look where we were running. We flew down the steps that
our father had cut into the hill. Our father had to chop every step when
the ice was on. Our hills were so steep that our hens had to be rescued when
the ice was on. Our father had to chop his steps and scatter ashes for
footing when some poor old hens slid down the steep hill behind our hen
house. He carried them back up the hill to warmth and safety. They would have
frozen to death down there in the cold dark night. Looking For Willard We looked in our horse trough first: we
dreaded to look in our well. The water in our well was crystal
clear. We could see the spring bubbling up in the bottom. He was not there.
Our brother had not fallen into our well. We ran back up the hill. Our mother was weeping. Her face looked
redder still. “Run to Thom’s house, see if they’ve
seen him.” We ran. We ran past our garden. We ran past our
chicken house. We ran along the ridge of our whole hill. Back by our peach trees, we picked up
the Old Road. It was natural to follow the Old Road because the Old Road was
the shortest way. It was easy to follow the Old Road because the grass did
not hide it. There was a different kind of green growing in the old ruts
where the wheels had turned. Blue grass would not grow in the ruts. Tongue
grass, dandelions and other little weeds were all that would grow where the
pioneer’s wheels had turned. Even Thom’s clover did not cover the
Old Road. No matter what Thom planted — one could still see the Old Road. We ran along the Old Road as fast as we
could run. We could see Thom”s house. We ran past Thom’s sweet-apple-tree. We
ran past Thom’s straw stack. We were there. Thank Goodness Thom did not have an
open well. We had heard Thom say that his well was deep. If our brother fell
into Thom’s well — we would not be able to see him, but Thom had a cover over
his well and a pump to bring the water up. We went to the back door. We could not
see Thom — but Meg was there. “We are looking for our brother.” Meg turned from her cooking toward us
and paused, then she said, “Is that kid gone again?” “Mom wants to know if you have seen
him.” “No, run back to your mother, he is not
here.” We ran back. Our mother was not in the
house. Our mother was not in the barn. Our mother was down by the pond. Our
mother was raking as far as she could reach into the pond with our garden
rake. Didn’t she know that anyone could crawl
right out of our pond. We fell into the pond almost every day. We got right
up and out. We just said that we “got wet.” We thought nothing of falling
into the pond. Our brother Willard could walk, now,
and he could crawl like lightning. If he fell into the pond — he would crawl
right out again. Angus’s Well “Run, look in Angus’ well. Then look among
Grover’s cows in Grover’s pasture.” We were already on our way to Angus’
well. We had done all this before. We climbed through the fence into
Angus’ pasture. We wished there was a stile, like in “Pig won’t get over the
stile and I can’t get home tonight.” We wondered why none of our neighbors
had stiles to cross the fences. Come to think of it, our father had not built
a stile. We climbed through the fence but a stile would be faster. “We could run right up and run right
down, if we had a stile.” My brother was getting tired. We ran as fast as we could the minute
we were through the fence. Barney There was Barney picking up his ears at
us, watching us with his velvet eyes. Angus’ mother had hitched Barney to the
little red and silver sleigh that we had seen in Angus’ stables. We had heard
that Barney wore silver bells when he pulled Angus’ mother in the sleigh. We
wondered if Angus still had the silver bells and why he didn’t let Barney
wear the bells when he drove Barney to town on Saturday nights. We watched to see Angus pass with
Barney stepping high in the shafts. Angus rode very low behind Barney because
his buggy had only two wheels. Angus had a special cap and a coat with a cape
for driving. “Why does he have only two wheels?” we
asked our mother. “Imported, from the East, maybe from
Ireland or England,” was her answer. We did not know enough to ask another
question. We had seen the four horses with black
plumes nodding when Angus’ mother died. We had heard that the undertaker had a
fine motor hearse but he used his black horses when some of us died in the
hills. He did not want his motor hearse mired to the axel in that
quicksand-hole. It was all the horses could do to make
it over the slippery thawing clay. In between our deaths — they stayed in
their warm stables. Too, they were fine carriage stock, not as heavy as our
horses (they might have been imported) and it may be that the undertaker did
not know how to have them shod. Our horses wore a heavy shoe most of the
year. Angus’s Farm We looked first, into Angus’ horse
trough. The same as at our well — we dreaded to look into the well. We had it
to do, so — we looked into Angus’ well. We gazed deep into the water. Angus’
well was as clear as our own. He was not there. Our brother’s body was not in
Angus’ well. Angus’ peacock was there beside the
well. As urgent as things were, we had still to look among Grover’s cows; we
had to look at the peacock. We wondered why he stomped around so
proud. Surely it was not his wife that made him so proud. His wife was
plainer than any of our hens. We waited: he might spread his tail. We felt that if we could look at his
spread tail forever — it would not be enough. We had seen him in the very act
of spreading his tail. We had seen his whole performance from a kind of
dancing through the different stages of tail display to the full spread, when
he just stood there, posed in his glory. Something told us that we were seeing
one of the greater shows. We might see more, but nothing greater. This day, he would not spread his tail.
He was not in the mood. He walked along picking at the grass, as common as a
chicken and his wife walked a few steps behind looking more common than a
chicken. We could not wait. But there was Angus:
we could have looked at Angus forever. Angus stood so straight, we thought he
must practice bowing his back and he called his barn “The Stables.” We had been in Angus’ house at
Christmas Time. One room of Angus’ house was as large as our whole house and
Angus had two of those great rooms upstairs. Our mother had threatened to
spank us if we did not stay off the stairway. There was a railing, all black
and shiny, to run ones hand along. We could not stop running up and down the
stairs. We could walk right in to the
fireplaces, there were four of them, and there was a bench at one side of the
fireplace, in case one wanted to sit right in the fire. We wished we had such
a bench in the fire to dry our clothing on a wet day. We became aware that we were staring.
We became aware, at the same time, that our mother would slap us if she were
here. We thought we had better say something. “We are looking for our brother.” “Is that kid gone again?” We felt a strange something. Our
neighbors used the same words exactly. We wanted to escape from the thought,
“We have to look among the cows.” we said, and we ran back the way we had come.
Grover’s Cows Back through the pasture, we climbed
through the fence and ran up the hill to look among Grover’s cows. We turned in the middle of the hill
into the little side road that curved around Angus’ woods. There — the cows. We were glad that we
could not see him there. We dreaded to go among the cows to get him were he
there. One day we had found him among the cows
(he had just learned to walk), waddling from cow to cow with baby hands
outstretched. The cows were smelling him with a gentle curiosity. Our mother
after a moment of incredulous hesitation, had climbed the fence and snatched
him from among the cows. We were glad that he was not there
today. Willard Is Found We ran back to our mother. She had just found him. “He was asleep
under the feedway.” He was wearing a horse’s halter. He had
harnessed himself to play horse and had been overcome by baby sleep under the
feedway.” We were glad that our mother was at
ease. She looked almost as usual. We sat down on the doorstep to rest. Neither my brother nor I commented on our
brother’s harness. We desired to be horses: our brother wanted to be a horse,
too. Our brother Willard matured us rapidly. When our mother ask us to stay by Willard
or to take Willard with us to play — we did not object. Somebody had to watch
Willard. Our mother had to bake our bread and
cook our meals. Our father had to have a hot meal at whatever time he came in
from the fields. Our mother could not watch Willard every minute. Playing with the cart became a memory. If we ran with the cart — Willard could
not keep up with us. Willard could not be the rider on the cart because he
was too fat and clumsy to stay on the cart. We supposed that Willard was too
fat because, in her anxiety, our mother had fed him too often. Willard was
always eating. Our mother had seen us dump Willard and
had forbidden us to put him on the cart. She said we could break his arms and
we lived to far from the doctor. We could not do anything that might
injure us because of that five miles between us and the doctor. When we picked berries, we kept a sharp
eye out for snakes. Our father had taught us the difference between a
harmless snake and a poisonous snake. He taught us that it was sure death to
be bitten by a viper or a copperhead because of that five miles to the
doctor. We were glad that we had no rattlesnakes. Rattlers were further west.
We had heard about rattlers. We knew that our mother was right about
breaking Willard’s arms. It just worked out that we ceased to play with the
cart. Meg And Thom One Sunday Afternoon, our brother was
three now, we went to spend the afternoon with Meg and Thom. Meg and Thom had
asked us to come because they were making ice cream. We did not want to miss
that. Thom had a special way — Thom did everything better — of making a
custard and then freezing it in his freezer. Thom turned the freezer handle
just so. Thom did everything — just so. Thom’s ice cream was so thick that
one could hardly spoon it. Thom mixed strawberries into his ice cream and
colored it a bright pink. The thick mountains of pink ice cream were more
dazzling than our mother’s shortcakes. Thom noticed that Willard did not say
anything. Thom said, “That boy should be
talking.” Thom knew how to blow heat from a burn.
Thom knew how to staunch blood. Thom knew how to pick herbs. Thom knew the
uses of each herb. We thought that Thom knew everything. Once before Willard was born, Thom had
used an infusion of watermelon seeds to help my brother. Thom taught our mother to simmer the
lining of a chicken’s gizzard for my vomiting spells. I would drink the
slightly bitter broth. Our mother knew how to bake an onion well
done in its skin and squeeze the soft onion through a cloth for the drop of
opium to be obtained. Our mother put this drop in our ear if we had an
earache. Thom had not taught her this — her father had squeezed a soft-roast
onion for her earaches. Before we went home, Thom took a look at Willard. He looked into
Willard’s mouth. He looked under Willard’s tongue. He looked up Willard’s
nose. “He is not tongue tied,” said Thom,
“and there’s nothing wrong with his vocal cords.” Willard made signs and
grunting sounds, which our mother understood. Thom went on, “He does not have a cleft
palate.” Thom was frowning. “You’d better take him to the doctor to see if
something is wrong, he ought to be talking by now.” Our mother looked worried as she always
looked over Willard. Our parents discussed Willard all the way home. Taking Willard To The Doctor The day came to take Willard to the
doctor. Our father came home early from the fields
and harnessed our work horses to the surrey. Our father was cross because we did not
have proper carriage horses, nor even light carriage harness for our mares.
Our father would have enjoyed taking us to town if we looked as we ought to
look. He would have been proud of a pair of bays like Barney. The surrey was now old-fashioned (lots
of people had automobiles) but the surrey would have looked passable had we
had the correct harness and a rested team of bays. Our father was cross
because he knew that we looked funny. Our mother was not cross. Our mother
was grateful and determined. Our mother could think of nothing but Willard. My brother-next-to-me did not say nor do
anything, he was a well behaved little boy, but I was all wiggley from the
excitement. We were important people. We were going to town. We were taking
our brother Willard to the doctor. I posed this way and that, wondering
how I would look better from my place in the surrey. The silk fringe made me
feel elegant. Our horses were beautiful, and I wondered who would see us. Our mother finally said to me, “Put
your hand down and sit still.” I put my hand down until we were well
on the way but when we were passing houses — I would pose again. Odon, Indiana We arrived in Odon. What style. What
fine houses. What a town. I must keep my pose every minute because there were
people and houses everywhere. Odon used to be Clarksburg before it
got its name changed. I wondered why they had changed its name. I liked
Clarksburg better. I repeated the rhyme to myself: Skeeter and Martin County, both gone away, Gone down to Clarksburg the whole day to stay. I had seen Skeeter. Skeeter was a funny
looking old man. I wondered who Martin County had been, or was. Was Martin
County Still alive? I would ask my mother, but not today. Today she was
worried enough to slap me. Not today. In The Doctor’s Office We had to wait in the doctor’s office
because he had not yet had his supper. The doctor made house calls all day,
came home, had his supper, and then, saw office patients until all were seen.
There were many black leather chairs, a
great desk, bookcases all around the walls, and wonder of wonders, a brown
leather sofa with big fat arms. I sat all over the sofa. I stroked its back. I stroked its arms.
I thought of when its leather had been alive. It was bigger than a cow;
perhaps it had been an elephant. I wanted to ask somebody but there was no one
to ask. I was sure that my parents would not know. I managed to sit still after my father
threatened to whip me. I wanted a whole life full of brown leather sofas. When the doctor came in — we were first
because we had been waiting longer. Our mother brought our brother to the doctor
and explained that he could not talk. She lowered her voice. There was an
edge of tears, “He doesn’t even say mama.” I was quiet. My brother next-to-me did
not even move. This was serious. “Well, let’s have a look.” the doctor
was big and kind looking. He looked at our brother as though he liked babies,
even aging babies who could not talk. The doctor took our brother right out
of our mother’s arms. Our brother was now on the doctor’s lap. The doctor had a little gold bell that
he rang, first on one side of our brother’s head and then on the other. No matter where the doctor held the
little gold bell our brother turned and reached for the bell. The bell made a tiny musical sound;
both my brother and I were wishing that we had the bell. Next, the doctor held his watch back of
our brother’s ear so that he could not see the watch, each time our brother
turned and reached for the watch. The doctor was smiling. He looked under our brother’s tongue.
He looked at the roof of his mouth. He looked down his throat. He looked up
his nose. “There is nothing wrong with this boy,
he will talk when he gets ready to talk. They sometimes wait until they are
sure they can use a whole sentence before they talk. Not usually, but
sometimes.” The doctor was addressing our mother. Our mother was looking more easy than
we could remember. She must have been worried about Willard for a long time. While the doctor was assuring our
mother — Willard had taken hold of the gold chain that lay across the
doctor’s stomach. There were keys at one end of the chain: Willard had the
keys in his hands. Those fat baby fingers were fumbling the gold keys round
and round. Willard had him a pretty, pretty. The doctor’s watch was heavy. The
doctor felt his watch slipping. “I’ll say there is nothing wrong with
this boy, he’s stealing my watch.” The doctor was laughing, but he was a
little amazed. Our mother was a little embarrassed.
She took Willard out of the doctor’s arms. The doctor bade us goodbye and “Good
Luck with the boy.” “Let me know how soon the boy starts to talk.” Our parents bade the doctor “Goodbye.”
and we were on the way home. It had taken the doctor only minutes to
know that there was nothing wrong with Willard. Willard was just unusual. Willard Goes To School Willard was still unusual when he went
to school. The teacher liked him, he was gentle and obedient, he got his
lessons, he could sing like an angel, but the boys, even big boys who should
have been ashamed to do so, picked on Willard because they sensed that he was
unusual. My brother-next and I had a fight every
day of our lives over Willard. Things became heartbreaking for Willard
when he got injured in a fire. The tendons of one of his legs got burned. The
leg pulled up to where it was more than and inch short. Willard had the most
pitiful limp that one could imagine. He refused to use crutches. His limp was so pitiful that it looked
ridiculous. From his Herculean efforts to walk, the cruel boys took to
calling him Will Hard. Even his friends would call, “Come on here Will Hard!”
while they waited for him to catch up to them. My brother-next and I fought that much
harder: We now had two fights a day. I had my last fight over Willard when I
was a senior in high school. A boy was teasing Willard, in the
school bus, embarrassing Willard in front of a busload of children. He was calling
Willard many hurtful names, saying that he couldn’t walk, calling him Will
Hard. I simply told the boy that I would kill
him. I said, “I’ll kill you right here in the school bus.” and I started
choking him. I meant it. The driver heard me, and he took a hand
with me and the boy. The driver said he would thrash us both. I had to let the boy go but there was
no more teasing from that one. I won what was needed. One more round won for
Willard. Willard stretched his burned leg so
that he could walk without his pitiful limp. He seemed to walk normally. He
was not thought of as crippled. He had only to be careful in stepping up and
down, in dancing, or in running. Willard Goes To The Army Willard grew to be such a big handsome
fellow that the United States Army spent three days trying to figure out how
they could take him into the army, in spite of his deeply scarred leg. Willard was as proud as could be with
those army doctors. “If you give me a tank — I can mow them
down. I can do anything with a tractor or a truck, a tank, too, if you’ll
give me one. But if anything happens to my tank, I can’t run very fast nor
very far.” He told them just how it was. They decided not to take him.
Willard came home defeated but proud. Who else had been considered for three
days? They had wanted him. Willard courted and married the
prettiest girl in the county. She is the best cook, the best housekeeper for
miles around. Willard got his own business. Willard
bought his own home. Willard lives in town (he likes to be near the post
office.) ã Copyright
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